Lately it seems as if life is full of disappointment and darkness. My heart is hurting for so many different people. There is a little boy named Luke from Florida who is 6 years old and battling a severe case of encephalitis. I stumbled upon him from a picture on a high school friend's facebook page. If you go to prayforluke.com you can read the story for yourself. It is heartbreaking and inspiring all in the same. I am amazed by the faith of this family. They really truly know God and His power. I am so thankful for that, but still can't help but wish I could fix it all.
Another person that I keep thinking about is my friend Nelson. He lost one of his firefighters in a crazy accident and it has really taken a toll on him. If you know Nelson, you know he is strong and resilient...but strength and resilience doesn't take the pain away. He has been through a lot over the past couple of years. And one of the things he has been through I have been through as well. It is coming on the year anniversary of my grandfather's death. It's hard to understand things like they are but we move on and trust God and know that He is going to provide. Yet I still long to be able to fix it. I miss Papa John.
Then there is Alton. Alton is a man that we have come close to since moving to Beaumont. Talk about a man of God. He would do anything for anyone. It's so wonderful to have people like that in your life. I wish I could do something for him now...he found out he is battling cancer...and it absolutely breaks my heart. I love that man quite like another dad. I don't think he knows that but he means a lot to me. He is a great example of what God has called us to be. And I hurt for him that he has to go through this...and there is nothing I can do.
And then I start to think of Mike. Mike is my best friend's dad. He was the epitome of strength and funny! I loved that man! And I wish there would have been something I could have done to keep him here...but I couldn't. And I see my friend and her family all the time and wish I could take the pain all away. They are all strong and very private but I know they hurt and I know they miss him. I know it's a battle everyday for some and others ever so often...but pain is pain and I can't even begin to imagine how they feel day to day.
I could go on at all the tragedy around me. And it's so easy to get caught up in the sorrow as well as the pain. My heart constantly breaks for these people and many more. Every time we go through these struggles...God's heart is breaking with us. After all, we were made in His image. I may not be able to fix all these things, but I definitely know how to pray to the one that can. So that is what I am doing. I can't fix people's situations but I can love them unconditionally. My love is all I have.
There is a song that I like to listen to that makes me feel the closest to God and I will end my post here.
There is a song that I like to listen to that makes me feel the closest to God and I will end my post here.
Love you mean it,
